Two Pink Lines {I think...} Pt. 1

So if you remember, before my vacation I posted about how I was bringing tampons and pregnancy tests with me because every month was always a guessing game.

Every month I thought I had a million symptoms and every month I was wrong. 

The month of February we were going with the whole "trying not to try" ordeal. 

Which still doesn't make sense to me 

because after 10 months of knowing every detail of your cycle you know what's going on

 and when the "right" time is.

And everyone that told me that that was key, I wanted to punch in the face kindly tell them I don't know how that's possible!!!! 

I was really discouraged and tearful knowing that by not forcing {so dramatic, I know} anything we were wasting another month.  So nothing was "forced", it wasn't like clock-work, no special products were used, no special "tricks, no hanging upside down for 30 minutes.
Total TMI and apologize, but I'm not kidding! 

Unlike the other months where I tested pretty much every day 10 days before my period, this time I only brought 2 tests.  This was a pretty big deal and big step for me- I wasn't going to obsess {might be an understatement} while we were on vacation, I was just going to test the last day we were there. I was supposed to start my period the day we were heading back home, so I was hoping that if it was positive it would show before we say good by to the Smelly in-laws. 

So I put back my good expensive tests and only brought 2 internet cheap ones, really expecting this to be just like the previous months.

I enjoyed the week with family and soaking up the sun. I got a massage and had to reluctantly circle "not pregnant" on the form.
Just another reminder that made me frustrated. 

I joked with Mr. B after that there should've been an option for "Maybe".
But I guess not everyone is weird like me....

I didn't have any "symptoms" and truly believed this was not my month.
Again. 

:: A little back story: my in-laws live in TX and we live in NH.  We had so many "perfect" opportunities where we were going to be able to tell them we were pregnant in person, but it never happened. I had so many different creative plans in my head on how we would tell them, I really wanted them to be a part of this since they won't be around for the other milestones of the pregnancy. It didn't happen in June for my FIL's birthday, it didn't happen in July for our weekend at the lake, it didn't happen in August for my MIL's birthday, it didn't happen in September when visited for Labor Day weekend, it didn't happen in November when we visited for Thanksgiving, it didn't happen in January when they came to visit for the weekend.... so I was just praying that it would happen on this vacation. 

It would be the perfect way to end a great week, it's extra special because it's just us with them and they live in NH for the summer months so they would be able to be a part of the pregnancy too and they already had plans to come to NH for Thanksgiving which is around when the due date would be. 
For real this time, could it be any more perfect???? ::

Thursday night, March 17th, I was feeling a little nauseous. I just figured that it was from being out on a boat all day. I did text my mom and joke that maybe I was pregnant....but I think I was just feeling a little sea sick. I just laid on the couch all night and was hoping that the night of sleep would make me feel better in the morning.

I woke up on Friday feeling fine and anxious to test, but not expecting to see anything new. 

I did my thing, put it on the counter and started to get ready for the day. Mr. B was staring at it and said he thinks he sees another line. I tell him to stop joking around and he says that he is serious and he shows it to me.
 My heart stopped!
 I think I see it , too!
 We were in shock, it was so faint we didn't want to get our hopes up.

But I hear a positive is a positive!!
 I was shaking, quickly started googling faint positives, texting my mom. trying really hard not to be too excited, just in case.
 But it was reallllllllllly hard.
I was so bummed that I only brought the cheap internet tests!
 I only had one left and I wanted to save it for the next morning to be sure that it was positive then too and then we would find a way to tell his parents before we left. 

The plans for the day were just to relax by the pool, Mr. B and I were really distant from his parents the whole day because we I really wanted to tell them in a creative way and thought we would do something special at dinner that night.
If I was talking to them, I knew I would just blurt it out.
 His mom even asked Mr. B if everything was ok with me, ha! 

I really wanted to test again with a better brand so we searched the shops in the resort and they didn't sell any.
Umm hello?? Who doesn't sell pregnancy test in a gift shop?! Strange, right? ;)


We decided to walk down the street to a little grocery store and thought for sure that they would have some. I was expecting to pay like $30 for this thing, everything is so expensive on the island! I didn't care though I just wanted to know, it was killing me!
We got to the store and they only had one brand- a cheap, generic, dollar-tree syringe type test.
 Of course.
Thankfully it was only $2 though, so we bought a couple so I could test multiple times the next day too.
You know, just to be sure. 

We got back to the hotel lobby, I did my thing again...this time in a public bathroom which was a little more awkward. I put the stick in my bag, walked out to Mr. B, pulled it out to see what it said.
Two pink lines. 
This time a little darker and it was in the afternoon.

Not even my morning pee. 

I am sold.

This is 100%, we are telling them tonight.

Thank you Jesus for doing everything in your perfect timing. For answering our prayers and allowing this special moment to happen in such a beautiful place and lining up all the details! 

I feel like this post is really boring and too long with hardly any pictures sooooo this is Part 1 and Part 2 will be about when we told them. 

Thanks again for the overwhelming encouraging words!! 

3 Months Late

Yes, I AM talking about my lovely little lady friend.

!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I failed to mention an important and very memorable part of our vacation that happened our last night in St. John.

After all, I think it deserved a post of it's very own. 

It went a little like this....

Then this...

Then this...

{love love love this picture btw}

And of course this...

And being at the beach, couldn't resist doing this...

I have been dying to post about this!!

Thank you all so so much for all your prayers and encouraging words.

This baby is such a testament of God's faithfulness, and we are ecstatic.

I am 13 weeks, have lots to update on and there will be a more detailed post sometime in the near future!

I prayed for this child, and the LORD has granted me what I asked of Him. 1 Samuel 1:27

2 Months Late

No, I am not talking about my lovely little lady friend.

I am talking about our vacation to St. John that was 2 months ago that I never blogged about.

We seriously have rain in the forecast for the next 10 days, 

I was thinking it was time for a nice sunny vacation with a palm tree....

and then I realized I already had one. 

Boo.

But of course, I am always up for another one!

When we reached the islands we started ort journey off on a very claustrophobic car ferry to get us from St. Thomas to St. John.

We safely arrived and enjoyed a delicious dinner while soaking up the sun and the views.

I finally fit in with the clan {except I am technically cooler than them now because I have the iPad 2, but we won't go there...}, I got my late Christmas present from my in-laws right in time for vacation. Literally the day before our flight, Mama Grace and I waited in line for 5+ hours!

Thank you Apple for timing it so perfectly. 

The rest of the weekend we enjoyed the beautiful crystal clear blue blue ocean.

The water really is this blue- I didn't even edit it!

We experienced breath-taking sunsets every night from our balcony.

We went to a you-have-to-go-to-this-burger-joint for lunch.

It was called Skinny Legs and it was only appropriate to get a picture of my Mr. B and his very own pair of skinny legs. Looks are deceiving- he was very reluctant and embarrassed, but we couldn't miss out on this photo-op.

Scenic views were around every corner..

I'm not a huge swim in the ocean fan, but this clear water made it a little more appealing.

We enjoyed some yummy dinners out on the town. 

Some relaxing days by the pool.

A snorkeling excursion through some caves.

But my lack of enjoying swimming in the ocean is multiplied by 20 when it comes to snorkeling and hearing myself breathe in the water. Aka the sound of the death.  

So I quickly went in and quickly went out. My excuse, and it was a legit one, was the salt water was burning my face like crazzzy. 

Pretty much felt like acid burning off the layers.

Seriously.

And I don't exaggerate that much.

So I just relaxed on the boat and took pictures :)

We enjoyed our last night at our favorite restaurant all sun-kissed and relaxed.

Ahhh vacations are SO nice. 

Thanks to my wonderful in-laws for inviting us and making this fabulous vacation possible! 

Also, please say a prayer for my sister-in-law today. She is being induced this afternoon- praying for a safe delivery and healthy little niece! 

Thanks?

My brother is came home from college last night
and he was telling us of a commercial they have down south. 

In NH they don't sell a soda called "Sun Drop", but apparently they do in North Carolina. 

And apparently said commercial reminds my brother of me.

I laughed.

I was a tiny bit horrified.

And I would be lying if I said I wasn't proud or slightly flattered.




PS Lilly is a lion head rabbit. Her siblings are arriving this weekend!

Newest Member

Meet to the newest member to my parents' little Saving Grace Farm...

Can you tell what it is??

It's so hard to understand and capture the cuteness of this little furball in pictures. 

Her name is Lilly and she looks like a little cartoon character/stuffed animal.

She has 2 sisters and 1 brother that will be joining her in 2 weeks.

In other farm related news, this is a normal site to see- right?

Just 3 goats on a trampoline with a shark-like puppy sneaking up on them from underneath. 

I'm thinking this will be the new activity this summer.

The light brown one on the right might be giving us some new additions soon too. 

We won't know if she is pregnant until just a couple weeks until she is due, which is the end of May.

I may or may not be really bitter if she really is pregnant. 

And got pregnant on her first try with Mr. Goat.

But that would be so silly to be jealous of a goat, right? 

Riiiiiight.

Yup, my craziness has gone to a whole new level.

It's funny listening to my parents wonder if she is pregnant....

I think she is acting different...

I think her belly looks bigger....

I think her teats look a little longer....

Been there, done that.

Every month you think you see something new. 

There have been many months when I thought for sure my teats were longer too...

Happy Friday! 

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So I know it's about time for a new post,

but I've got nothing to say.

I can't think of anything to write about.

So when in doubt, stick to the random-are-you-seriously-writing-about-that-list.

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These are my American Idol favs. I vote for them every week with a simple text.

I truly believe one of them will win. I think my love for them is pretty close, but I think I would have to say I love Scotty just a tiny tiny bit more. He is so good and makes me laugh.

 via

Isn't Lauren totally DJ from Full House??

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I really need to paint my nails. This is what they currently look like and it's driving me nuts. 

 Fingers look weird sometimes. I am hoping it's all fingers and not just me...

Also, I splurged before vacation {which reminds me I never blogged about- wohoo there's another post!} and I bought my first bottle of O.P.I. Actually, I bought 2 bottles because it was buy one get one 50% off so I had to. And now? I'm hooked. I already bought a new color and I can see this quickly becoming an addiction. Technically, I am already addicted to buying nail polish- but it's different when the bottles are $1 and when they are $8.50. So I will try my best to contain myself.

 I also bought the O.P.I no chip stuff and the top coat quick dry and get this...it doesn't seem to work with other brands. 

Is that sneaky or what?? 

So of course I have no other option, but to buy the good stuff now.

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I really need to go do my hair. My straightener has been on for over an hour now.

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I also should put away the laundry that has been sitting in the basket since Monday. Just for the record- it is folded. If that makes any difference, I don't know. But it makes me feel a little better about myself.

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I keep watching Extreme Couponing and wishing I could kind of be like that. So I googled double couponing in NH and....Shaw's does double couples!! 

Shaw's is always the more expensive grocery store, but they do have some great deals sometimes and if I can double a coupon then I will be making one tiny step closer to becoming a good couponer. 

So I am gonna try and start that soon and see if it gets me anywhere. 

They are the only grocery store in NH that does it and thankfully they are the closest to my house so I hope it works out!

If you don't know if any around do it- google it!

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Today is Maundy Thursday and we are having a service at our church tonight. I can't recall ever actually doing anything on this day. Typically we had a Good Friday service at school and then of course Easter Celebration at church, but I don't think I have ever done anything in remembrance of "Holy Thursday", the Last Supper, the darkness, the pain, the weight of the world, etc. I think it will be a great time of reflection, truly remembering what this holiday is about and what really took place for me. We have been doing a book club at the church called "One Thousand Gifts" and the premise is basically about finding joy and thanksgiving in your every day life, in every situation. {Highly recommend this book btw!} She gave many example of Jesus always giving thanks in every circumstance, one scripture in particular was Luke 22:19 "And he took bread, gave thanks and broke it, and gave it to them, saying " This is my body given for you; do this in remembrance of me". Even when Jesus knew he would be crucified He gave thanks.  It's pretty humbling.  And inspiring. And I encourage all of you to reflect and give thanks during this time as well. For taking our place. We have so much to be thankful for. 

Look at that...something real came out of the random list about nothing. That wasn't even planned! 

Happy Thursday!

Not So Little Sister

Saturday was my little sister's 14th birthday.

She gave me a hard time for blogging about my dog's birthday and not her.

Completely understandable, of course! 

But I don't typically blog on the weekends 

and yesterday I was busy.

So today my post is dedicated to my wonderful little sister.

The little sister I prayed for. 

The baby I was always eager to help my mom take care of and quickly became the mother hen.

14 years later this baby sister is quickly becoming one of my best friends.

How is this even possible??

How is she going to be a freshman in high school next year?!

My baby sister?!

She is turning into a beautiful Godly young woman.

I am so blessed to be a part of her life and watch her grow.

And also watch our relationship transforms to even more than just sisters.

Although we are 10 years apart and still have our differences, I know our friendship is special and will only be strengthened as the years go on.

Happy Birthday, Ali!

I am so thankful the Lord answered my prayers when I was a little girl and blessed me with such an awesome sister!